Summer plans!

Hi! I didn’t come up with a topic this week so I decided to share a list of things that I’m doing this summer.

Events

  • Moving in (with a friend)
  • Review archaeology
  • Vacation cultural school meetings
  • Archaeological camp
  • Orthodontist appointment
  • St. Louis Pride Parade
  • Kenyon Young Writer’s Workshop
  • Tennis camp
  • Moving in (with my new host family)
  • SAT
  • Wordsmith meetings

Adventures

  • Go to Ted Drewes (ice creams!)
  • Go on long walks
  • Go to the Loop with friends
  • Make art
    • Dye clothes

To-dos

  • Write college application essays
  • Co-write a play for our school’s theatre production with a friend
  • Write the first draft of my newest novel
  • Edit a short story for an anthology
  • Building a writing & photography brand 
    • Blog weekly
    • Build a website
    • Post photos on Instagram daily
    • Submit to magazines
  • Learn more words
  • Put together a portfolio
  • Read books (both fiction and non-fiction)
  • Journal
  • Learn to cook
  • Work out
    • Build muscles
  • Volunteer
    • Rabbit society
    • Local library
  • Read news
  • Take Zumba classes

I can’t believe I’m going to be a senior next year!

PS: Happy Pride Month!

~Ocean~

On the Move

I moved out of my host family’s house on May 24th. The administration office at my school said I was the first international student who does not travel back to their home country during the summer, and there were lots of things to figure out. My decision to stay in States was complicated. I’m a rising senior and there were college preparatory things that I’d like to do, like writing application essays early. I’m also going to a two-week archaeology camp in June and a two-week writing workshop in July which I’m thrilled about.

I felt a sense of guilt not being able to visit my grandparents. But I decided to not let guilt and shame to swallow me. I’m done doing what I’m supposed to do. I’m going to do what I want to do. I’m not living my life to become who I’m supposed to be, I’m living my life to be who I am. (For those who feel like they’re not living their authentic life, I highly recommend Choose Wonder Over Worry by Amber Rae. It’s an inspiration.)

I have been here for two years, and although imperfect (it’s hard to not be furious at the state of today’s world), America had felt more familiar than my country of origin. I’m proud of my cultural heritage, but I adopted this country as my new homeland. I love my grandparents dearly and cherish every opportunity to talk to them by phone calls or FaceTime. But I will stay, and I will not feel ashamed the next time someone say I’m Americanized. I’m a mixture of both continents that nurtured me and I’m not meant to be fit in labels.

An older friend generously offers me to stay at her place during the summer. The past couple of weeks, I gradually moved my boxes into her closets. I finished unpacking on Friday when she was at work, brought necessities at Target, and microwaved frozen dinner. Yesterday we brought groceries and I began my cooking journey. I started with upgrade ramen noodles and baked shrimp. Doing the cooking and cleaning makes me feel closer to adulthood because having control over what I consume gives me a sense of power.

I became more adaptable than I thought. I used to resist changes, but now I see them and the anxiety that comes with them opportunities for growth. I’m young and I will move many times more in my life, but hopefully, each step will bring me closer to my passion and my dream life (aka a cabin in the woods).

PS: I created an Instagram account: thisisaplacetocreate. If you want to see more of my photography and writing process, please feel free to follow me.

~ Ocean ~